so much for ♥

the second day; was a very long day indeed...i am desperately finding things to keep myself occupied...i cant be alone for all i know as im not that strong...i should be prepared for this the moment a cooling period is agreed...the difficulty in coping my life and accepting facts...i grit my teeth and took this unwanted treatment...cos i know its not up to my decision...who will want a temporary separation? no contact and isolated? no sense of security? and a 'sticky ghost' person is definitely not up to this cooling period...someone that will get paranoid and worried for the slightest thing, someone that get a fuss up over sensitive stuff and all this with a reason - everything of u matters...all these much of me but still i accepted...this was how much i can get a control myself not to call and contact u as u wished, get going with my life and know my piority of studies as i know u will be upset or angry if i mess that...the motivation that pushed me to love u by how u want me to love u...this kind of cruel method...

ps***tell me how i should love; i will learn because i love u